Hey look! I actually posted!

Yeah, well I guess I haven’t really been doing as much with this here blog than I thought I would. Has life finally fluxed back into a more normal mode? I suppose it has. Things are great and glorious and wonderful, yet I’ve been in what could be called a bit of a “grumpy” mood. Thing is, I’m not really in the mood for that shit. I don’t like being grumpy to my kids, x wife, co workers, dogs, cats fuck you name it and I’ve been just slightly closer to yell “SHUT THE FUCK UP! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU COCK FUCKS SHUT UP! I’m not in the mood to feel that way. It’s okay though. I actually know the exact reason my mood has been this way and I know exactly what I need to do to fix it. So, moving on…
One thing I’ve noticed living by myself again is I have found sitting in silence to be the best distraction. I’m not wasting time on the internet as much as I used to. I don’t have cable so I never have the T.V. on unless the kids want to watch something on Netflix. Also no music. Now that’s kind of a strange one for me. I usually always make time to sit and listen to records or something like that. The one thing I do do is play the shit out of my guitar (and hopefully annoy the shit out of my neighbors). I mean it might as well be welded to my body. Anyway, I find most of the time I’m just content with the sounds of my neighborhood. I really do love living in a “city” and all the sounds that come with it. I can hear the bells from the light rail as they go by and it kind a reminds me of when I lived in San Francisco, traffic, idiots in the street. Granted it’s not like New York or San Francisco which is just fine with me. The hum of the traffic and airplanes passing over head regularly is just right in my little corner of Earth.
Yeah, all is well and good. Room for improvement on my part but that’s the way this life game works. Apparently you need to actually participate!
I will make more time for this blog when it comes and it will.

My life in the last few weeks in pictures and one video!

Today was the first deck day! It’s a beautiful day and Spring is on it’s way! 20140329-181609.jpg

I got a tattoo! Red Fish, my big dumb betta fish. He’s a hysterical fish with a hell of an attitude problem. It’ll be getting color in May!20140329-181715.jpg

As you’re all aware of, I am a huge Melvins fan and I got to celebrate Buzzo’s 50th at Grumpy’s here in Minneapolis. It was an amazing acoustic set and great stage banter. I snapped this pic right when he got on stage. 20140329-181740.jpg

Mustaches!20140329-181918.jpg

Mustaches!

H and I both are a bit taken aback by this pic because Lu is getting older. I love her face in this picture. She is so beautiful. 20140329-181939.jpg

Even more mustaches!20140329-182021.jpg

So a couple of weeks ago I got to perform with a group called Cock E.S.P.. They’ve been around forever and it’s very “avant-garde”. Short sets of harsh noise and violence whilst still making fools out of our selves. It was a blast and I’m looking forward to doing many more shows as a part of Cock E.S.P.! Here’s a 15 second clip of the performance and yes those tighty whiteys were VERY TIGHT.

So hurray! My life has been kicking ass lately and I can honestly say I haven’t been this happy in quite a while. H and I have been getting along amazingly. The girls are doing great. Cadence is talking like crazy and is constantly cracking me up and LindaSue is excelling in school in such a way that I can’t even put into words how proud I am.

 

What a great night!

Last night was the 2nd ever solo acoustic show with Buzz from the Melvins. It was at Grumpy’s downtown which is probably the most intimate place to see live music. It’s almost like he’s in your living room. Anyway he opened with one of my favorite songs off the album that made me love the Melvins….Enjoy!

I’m still here!

Wow. I’ve been super busy lately! In a very good way. I like keeping busy, but I finally have sometime to relax and let y’all know whats good. Sooooo….
Tonight I will be seeing King Buzzo (Melvins) do an acoustic solo set at Grumpy’s and I’m pretty excited to be there.
Work is great, busy as hell but that’s good! The kids are great and I’m great. Everything is great! It’s important that I keep this momentum going. I’ve been feeling pretty positive about life and I really like that. It makes me happy.

The Dickdusters!

When I was in San Francisco I had the pleasure of playing in a band with my best friends. We were awesome. Awesome in the way that we loved each other, fought each other, did tons of blow and drank like fish, but more importantly we ROCKED. I really loved our music (I still do) and I’ve never been with a group that clicked as well as we did. The Dickdusters were my “Rock star” days and while I don’t miss a lot of what went on I do miss playing music with these guys. There’s talk of doing a reunion show and that would be wonderful and amazing. I really, REALLY hope it happens.
Anyway today I found a disk today with this on it. I hadn’t seen it until today and it really brought the memories back big time. It’s a great piece of footage from one of my favorite shows we played. Man I got some stories from that night!
Enjoy!

Death Of A Marriage- Fin

So yeah. I thought I was gonna write about my marriage sorta as a way to grieve. After rolling it around in my head for a while I decided to write this.

I was married for almost ten years. Eight of those years were great, the last two not so much but hey, two out of ten isn’t bad. I remember when we lived in San Francisco all of our friends thought we where just the most amazing couple and we were but I think because we were actually married it made a difference with our friends. You know, we actually made that commitment. It always kinda baffled me and my only response to people saying how awesome we were was “Well, it takes a lot of work”. I guess in the end we weren’t working hard enough. I mean we were working very hard on raising our children but our marriage just kinda got pushed to the side.
It’s been almost a year now that I moved out (that is fucking crazy!) and I’m pretty damn happy. Here’s why… I feel like H and I are moving forward in our new lives together not only as parents but as friends too. That is pretty fucking cool. When you think of divorce it’s hard to see a good side but I’m here to tell you now that there is always a good side to everything. I was happy when I was married but I’m much happier now. I’m much happier now that I finally am getting the feeling of being settled in my new life and a new start to a new year is always a great feeling especially when the last year was pretty much a constant dick punch. I’m much happier now with H and I’s relationship. I really think this was the best thing for both of us. We get along great now and that is really important to me. I want my daughters to see us happy together and as individuals. I’m grateful that this didn’t go the way most divorces seem to go. I’ve grieved and I feel like writing about the past is unnecessary at this point. It’s time to write about now and now is good. Dare I say divorce is good? I do. Divorce is good.

Seriously though.

It’s fucking COLD. I don’t mind snow and Winter in general but this Winter has been the most brutally cold bullshit ever. It’s starting to drive me crazy and it’s still February. My apartment has 3 unblocked heater vents. Two in the living room and one in the bathroom. Awesome. I’ve been running a space heater when I’m at home because I’m a puss. Seriously though. It’s been fucking cold. I would be happy for a 20 degree day! Seriously.